Sunday, January 31, 2010

Because If I am to go,in my heart you'd grow and that's where you belong.

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So, Hi. How have all of you been? Not that any of you care to ask me how I am. But still, I'd still be Nice and not so ignorant.

So What The Fuck is happening around here? I mean, IS this even possible? How can life get so FUCKING unbelievable? Can someone please FUCKING answer?
For the Love of god. If this is WHAT I get for being so Honest and True, I rather Die out of regret.
But, NOOOO! GOD ( Who I definitely don't believe in) wants me to get tested so that I can survive, Right? WHAT BULLSHIT.

A day will come, When YOUR OWN people, Who you named as "Mankind", Will not be so "kind" anymore. They wouldn't even bother believing that you ever existed.

Anyway, How much more are you going to test me? Bring it ON,Anyway. Who are you ?
You rather just be up there and LOOK at people get fucked up to the BIGGEST order, Okay?
Just do ME a favor and for your own sake, Don't do shit for me anymore.

I can't even count on my fingers for how many times you've actually tried to block bliss in my life.
See, I'll give you an example, LOOK at me, Do I look anywhere near Happy to you ?
Um, NO?
Get the Picture?. Oh! I'm so Fucking sure you don't. That's not something new, Is it.

OH! First you make me Feel all Happy about something, Make myself believe that, Yes, Finally I can breathe without hesitation. You push people in my Life, Make me find a place in their Heart and then confuse me completely, And then you make me push them away. You do your job till there, And then you STOP , Your Job here is done, You just Ruined someone . And What about me? What about all of the stuff I have to go through after that ?
What About the people? What in the name of FUCK do you WANT ?

This is a freaking order from one of your useless creations, ME.
Either you shower in the happiness that I fucking deserve right now. Or just DIE. Okay? Just fucking die out.
Either you give me back THE freaking love I deserve from the guy I am in Love with, Or just make me lose my memory. Cause I cannot do this anymore. I cannot sit here thinking he'll be alright without me, When he is not. I can't sit here like a fool just because I'm Hopelessly devoted to him.
Guess mine is not the first heart broken, my eyes are not the first tocry
I'm not the first to know, there's just no getting over him. Okay? If thats what you want me to do. Go fuck a whore Goddess.

I think its high time, I should have some sleep at nights too you know. I sleep when everyone in the world is Wide awake. And when I'm up, I don't see anyone around.
You have Fucked me up. Like, REALLY.
Are you happy now? Ohh. Well I'm fuck sure you are. So much, that you could give away some more of my happiness to someone who doesn't deserve some. Right?
Great. Who the fuck created you ? Why don't your so called people ever find him? I'm sure he would have been Kind enough.

Anyway, I'm done with you . Go fuck someone or something, You don't deserve to be in a position to be called,God.
Fuck OFF.

To Siddhant, Listen, I don't know what do you want from me. I really don't know. And its High time you knew, This isn't useless. Okay? Like, Don't you get it anymore? Haven't you heard enough ? I have failed to understand, WHY. Its really Time, You should forgive me, And yourself. If you know I love you, I really do. Didn't you Notice enough, My entire freaking Blog is like devoted to you. I can write a Book about you. About your Silence all these Months. Every day made me think about you even more. I just can't do this without you anymore. And I can't see you unhappy. Cause right now, Trust me I know you are pretty unhappy. Aren't you Weed?.
Just Hang on there, alright?
I'm here. Anytime Just for you, Consider yourself Very lucky Love. :)
And anytime, I mean it anytime you feel you want to talk, DO NOT ask anyone before doing that, Just CALL. okay? Just call. Believe me, I'll be the happiest person. That would give me some extra reasons to stay alive.

I Love you, More than you can ever Imagine.

1 comment:

  1. If fate doesn't make you laugh, you aren't getting the joke.
    And don't go pleading for happiness or bliss as you call it, see, suffering and bliss are the same thing in the reverse order. For example, take your hand, when you open it to put it on someone's shoulder from affection that's happiness, but when you use that same hand to make a fist to cause harm that's suffering. It's essentially made of the same thing, your hand. So..

    You're still a kid. See, I was sitting starting at my Math teacher and I thought of this thing, the first real sign of maturity is when you start liking people not when they treat you the way you want to be treated but the way you should be treated.
    I'm getting too fucking deep.

    The last line. HAHAHAHA!
    Ain't that a b with an itch.. know the rest.